The war was over.
I was crying, and I couldn't stop. I was crying because I felt a sense of regret, I didn't do as much as I could to help the Jewish people. People were proud of me, of what I did, and what had happened, but I still felt really bad for not doing any more than I could've done.
The war ends in 1945, and I leave..
Sunday, March 4, 2007
July 2nd, 1944
Today was horrific, middle of summer, and I thought it was snowing.
Turns out to be ashes, most likely from a flame. This was not a small flame I thought to myself, but something much much larger.
I look around and around to see what's going on, to see a HUGE fire. Turns out Amon ordered them to burn the Jews...
As I looked and looked at the horrific sight, I see a very familiar person..
The person I saw was, the little girl in the red dress. She had died, and they were sending her into the flames along with the others. That had really absolutely made me change the way I looked at everything. The mind changing experience has made me want to do something to help them, but how? I bought the Jews. I tried over and over again, to see how I could get the money or how I could just get them and save them from this horrible thing.
Turns out to be ashes, most likely from a flame. This was not a small flame I thought to myself, but something much much larger.
I look around and around to see what's going on, to see a HUGE fire. Turns out Amon ordered them to burn the Jews...
As I looked and looked at the horrific sight, I see a very familiar person..
The person I saw was, the little girl in the red dress. She had died, and they were sending her into the flames along with the others. That had really absolutely made me change the way I looked at everything. The mind changing experience has made me want to do something to help them, but how? I bought the Jews. I tried over and over again, to see how I could get the money or how I could just get them and save them from this horrible thing.
April 3rd, 1943
My wife and I were horseback riding, while we were doing just that, my wife noticed at what was happening with the Jews, she had to look away. She told me to turn back around and go on, but there was something that caught my eye..
A little girl, in a red dress. She looked like she was trying to hide from the soldiers, she ran around, and went to hide inside a door.
That was the last I saw of her, and I just couldn't believe what was happening..
This whole situation was driving me insane, I just had to talk to Amon.
We had a long talk, a talk about power. I was being serious, and he was there laughing, thinking I was joking around, so I guess I just had to too to make it seem less obvious that I'm TRYING to help the Jews.
After that, I talked to his maid. The maid seemed very scared, thinking Amon would kill her very soon and how she's not going to live very long. I had to calm her down, I told her that Amon would not do such a thing to her because he actually likes her. She told me about how Amon had killed off an innocent woman while she was doing her job, she told me he killed her while she walking past his porch, she saw it with her own eyes. She was frightened of course, but I didn't let anything from stopping me to calm her down.
Next day, I went to Amon, to see that they were shipping the Jews somewhere. The temperature was really crazy, and it was burning hot. I felt really bad for the Jews in the train, I thought to myself, and I just had to do something about it. I told Amon that would go and get water for them. He thought it was a great idea, just another way to torture them EVEN MORE. But that's not what I was aiming for, I was really trying to help them. We got the hose, and we went from side to side from the trains, getting each and every single train and helping them not to get dehydrated and die from heat. I helped as much as I could while Amon was in the back with the soldiers laughing and laughing at what I was doing because he thought I was torturing them, but of course, I wasn't.
A little girl, in a red dress. She looked like she was trying to hide from the soldiers, she ran around, and went to hide inside a door.
That was the last I saw of her, and I just couldn't believe what was happening..
This whole situation was driving me insane, I just had to talk to Amon.
We had a long talk, a talk about power. I was being serious, and he was there laughing, thinking I was joking around, so I guess I just had to too to make it seem less obvious that I'm TRYING to help the Jews.
After that, I talked to his maid. The maid seemed very scared, thinking Amon would kill her very soon and how she's not going to live very long. I had to calm her down, I told her that Amon would not do such a thing to her because he actually likes her. She told me about how Amon had killed off an innocent woman while she was doing her job, she told me he killed her while she walking past his porch, she saw it with her own eyes. She was frightened of course, but I didn't let anything from stopping me to calm her down.
Next day, I went to Amon, to see that they were shipping the Jews somewhere. The temperature was really crazy, and it was burning hot. I felt really bad for the Jews in the train, I thought to myself, and I just had to do something about it. I told Amon that would go and get water for them. He thought it was a great idea, just another way to torture them EVEN MORE. But that's not what I was aiming for, I was really trying to help them. We got the hose, and we went from side to side from the trains, getting each and every single train and helping them not to get dehydrated and die from heat. I helped as much as I could while Amon was in the back with the soldiers laughing and laughing at what I was doing because he thought I was torturing them, but of course, I wasn't.
February 4th, 1942
My wife came to visit me, and she was a little angry at me, because of my little 'friends' I have all the time.
The people, were moving the Jews into the Ghetto. I didn't care at the moment, of course, I am a Nazi, they meant nothing to me. I took their apartments, it made me feel so much better, I felt much more relaxed, and I loved it. Come to think of it, I should've taken even more houses and more apartments just to make myself seem even more richer than I already am.
But things had started to change, the way I looked at things, my perspective of the Jews. So many different types of killings had occurred and I was really mad at what was going on. Stan had told me what was going on, and I he told me that Amon was about to kill an old man for not doing his job, correctly, or fast enough. When I heard that he got lucky and didn't die, I just had to help the man. I had bought him. I bought him with my lighter. I was glad that I did that, because I had saved one life from what was going on. He told me he would help keep the company running smoothly, and that's what I really wanted to hear. After that, I had bought a kid, and he was really thankful for what I had did, but then after that I just really ignored him, because I didn't care as much, I helped him, I bought him, I'm gone. That's it. Later on, a lady came into my office, saying that I've been buying Jews and helping them. I was furious at her, she told me to buy her parents for her, because they really need help, but she had forms that says she's not a Jew so she was safe. She asked me to buy them, but I was mad because I was seen as the person who was there to buy the Jews and save them all. I was angry and she had gotten scared and left the office. But after that, I realized, I should help them. So I bought them, I looked out the window to see them coming into my office, and I see the lady, walking away, seeing her parents are safe.
The people, were moving the Jews into the Ghetto. I didn't care at the moment, of course, I am a Nazi, they meant nothing to me. I took their apartments, it made me feel so much better, I felt much more relaxed, and I loved it. Come to think of it, I should've taken even more houses and more apartments just to make myself seem even more richer than I already am.
But things had started to change, the way I looked at things, my perspective of the Jews. So many different types of killings had occurred and I was really mad at what was going on. Stan had told me what was going on, and I he told me that Amon was about to kill an old man for not doing his job, correctly, or fast enough. When I heard that he got lucky and didn't die, I just had to help the man. I had bought him. I bought him with my lighter. I was glad that I did that, because I had saved one life from what was going on. He told me he would help keep the company running smoothly, and that's what I really wanted to hear. After that, I had bought a kid, and he was really thankful for what I had did, but then after that I just really ignored him, because I didn't care as much, I helped him, I bought him, I'm gone. That's it. Later on, a lady came into my office, saying that I've been buying Jews and helping them. I was furious at her, she told me to buy her parents for her, because they really need help, but she had forms that says she's not a Jew so she was safe. She asked me to buy them, but I was mad because I was seen as the person who was there to buy the Jews and save them all. I was angry and she had gotten scared and left the office. But after that, I realized, I should help them. So I bought them, I looked out the window to see them coming into my office, and I see the lady, walking away, seeing her parents are safe.
July 11th, 1941
I got myself ready to go to a celebration, and I see these two officers, with a beautiful lady. I thought to myself I should make friends with them, and that's what I did. Bought them a nice bottle of champagne. Curious, one of the officers came up to me, and asked who I am. Told him my name, and everything was fine.
At the celebration, I kissed all the beautiful women, it was nice. I had pictures taken with a lot of people, one of them blocked a girl's face to get a picture with me, and that's what I want, I really loved that moment.
I thought to myself that if I made friends with these USSR officers, I could use them later on.
I also bribed the waiter to do what I had wanted, because of course, I am made of money.
Oh what else is there.. yes, there were a line full of Jews, I, of course, just went to the front of the line, to ask my own question without waiting. Why should I wait? I'm not like the other people, I see myself as a more superior person that all of them.
At the celebration, I kissed all the beautiful women, it was nice. I had pictures taken with a lot of people, one of them blocked a girl's face to get a picture with me, and that's what I want, I really loved that moment.
I thought to myself that if I made friends with these USSR officers, I could use them later on.
I also bribed the waiter to do what I had wanted, because of course, I am made of money.
Oh what else is there.. yes, there were a line full of Jews, I, of course, just went to the front of the line, to ask my own question without waiting. Why should I wait? I'm not like the other people, I see myself as a more superior person that all of them.
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